Day 4: The letter

Today morning Rajni and I had an altercation on a very silly subject. I could have brushed it off as something inconsequential but I knew it was much more than that. I know there are issues with my joblessness - as this puts a lot of pressure on us in financial terms. Rajni wants a lot of things for the house, but more importantly she wants a bigger house – which we cannot afford at the moment. I am tempted to put all my writing aside and move into a steady job. Parag has suggested that he could get both of us a job in the college if we ever wanted to move to Lucknow. I hope things work out with my writing soon; else we may have to take some hard decisions.

Rajni’s mother had called her on the weekend. And Rajni was crying for a long time after that. Though she was careful that I did not catch her crying, but I could read her puffy eyes. It pains me to see her like this. Oh !!!! God what a wretch I am.

I am not sure if I should be sharing this with you. But I guess it would ease my pain by talking to friends. One of these days I might be tempted to accept Amrit’s offer (I wonder how much this guy has raked in from Royalty – all at my expense).

The wretched book, I am sure is another catalyst to our frequent fights.

The reason I started on this blog, as you can see from the title was not to wash my dirty linen in public but to ask a favor of you - can you please help me identify who this mail is from. I found this in my inbox today morning.

Hi Anup,

While you are savoring your new found stardom, let me remind you that your book came across as highly insensitive. I never thought that you could stoop to such a level to rake in a few bucks. You have fallen in my eyes. But what do you care – you are much beyond the humane person I knew. All you needed to do was ask and I would have sent you all the money you ever wanted – you are worse than the beggars whom we meet on every traffic signal.

Can you please let me know what made you do this?

I would have never wanted to get in touch with you or speak to you but the book got me so worked up that I could not resist venting my anger.

All I can say is I hope that life never brings us on cross roads – I will like to wring your neck and kill you on the spot.


Shamefully yours
- A well wisher.

This letter has put me under a lot of undue stress, I am not able to think of anything else since I have received this. I hope Rajni never spots it.

Ghosh !!!! was I happier when all of us were together.

Day 2

I had initially hoped to put in a interesting entry on my blog today but as the day draws to close I am left feeling exhausted and miserable. Rajni has been acting short tempered since a few weeks. I had initially assumed that it had something to do with the way women are made, but her foul mood has continued for too long. Today I had cooked up a special dinner for her but we hardly ate because of her mood.

I wondered if it was something with work and had spoken to a few of her friends from work, but they assured me that there was nothing as such.

After dinner as Rajni headed for the bed, I suggested that we should take a break and visit one of our friends . But she not only sneered at my comment but retorted angrily, accusing me that I was selfish and only thought about myself.

These days there has been little talk around the house – all we do is fight.

I am sorry if I have let you down, I hope I am in a better mood tomorrow.

Hi I am Anup

Hi Everyone !!! This is Anup and this is my first Blog. Parag and Bhau have been egging me to start my own blog. They tell me that this is the first step to becoming a successful writer. I did not believe them until I saw it for myself.

Look at all these new breed of writers who are not half as good as me. But they all have a book to their name. I was amused to see Amrit's book on the shelves. It is funny how someone who you always thought to be half as good as yourself has a book to show and you have none.

I am hoping that the publishers will now be able to spot me more easily. I have a few books up my sleeve, waiting for you. Please get in touch with me over my blog or write to me at my mail address .....

This is Anup - Signing off for now.